more time

This post is titled, more time. because i wish i had more time. 


Couple things you can be sure of when you're reading my blogs:

• i don't lie
• i don't sugar coat things
• i don't tell you every detail because - well - i promise you don't want to know the weird stuff. 
• I don't care about capitalization. and spelling is sometimes an issue. but if i use the wrong word or leave out a word you can bet that was an accident bc that annoys me 
• i can be honest to a fault, which means sometimes, i may overshare. :S whoops
• i am an overachiever. i'm trying to come to grips with this

So apparently my post of "Whoooooooooooooo's having two!" got deleted. no idea how... and i'm so bummed. i loved that post. That was where I shared that 2 embryos took!!

I had over 1500 hits on that post alone! so, if you were looking for it, i don't know what happened, be sad with me - promise it was not purposeful. but for you to know, we are having two (as of right now). and we are all keeping our hearts protected because anything can happen. and we know that. Just because this is a surrogacy case doesn't make it immune to issues and mishaps. (unfortunately). i wish i could keep my IP's in a glass bubble and let them be excited right now about everything but i cannot. and they're doing their part to be as excited as they're comfortable. and i support them in this. 

I wish i had more time in each day that i could give 100000% to everything i do. i would have an AMAZING blog. and i'd probably be rich because i would have done something so supernaturally cool that it was worth a buy. :) alas, i'm just here, killin it as a mom and trying my best to make the most money i can for the kids of St. Jude and just trying to be awesome. and... i mean, i am growing two humans! so i must be doing something right. 

i have so many ideas to blog about randomly thru the day but when i sit down to do it, i draw a blank. :S 

So, what's happening right now you ask? Well...

• I'm feeling quite fat because i just look like i've gained a ton of weight in my rear and my belly. so i'm not feeling great about my self image. HAHA! (i know, don't lecture me). 
• i'm still getting crampy on the regular and i feel like i can't suck in any more. it's kinda blowing my mind how fast my belly is growing this go around compared to my girls bc they were all singletons and this set of boys... they're definitely not lacking any nutrition. :)
• already have 'pregnancy brain'. i'm already forgetful, so guess how bad it is now!
• i'm almost to the point that i cannot lay on my belly... ALREADY!!! see... there's a reason i feel like i'm the broad side of a barn. 
• i've received an incredible amount of support from my friends and family and even strangers on facebook. i'm so blessed by your love and your support - i cannot tell you how much it means to me. so please, keep it coming. remember, i'm a pregnant lady so you may need to tell me MANY TIMES over and over again bc i forget and i'm emotional.
• oh yeah, i'm kinda emotional right now. but you can call me out on it... i like to keep that under control. 
• i'm still taking hormones around the clock. 
• i'm nauseous pretty much every day. very picky about what i eat now. but i love me some pickles (go figure...)
• i miss my massage therapist (and any kind of massage). my dr didn't want me to see my massage therapist right now thru the first trimester and i'm so sad. but i'm also dying! (not really) i just love me some shoulder/neck massage. aaaahhhh, the joys of being single. 
• sprite is my best friend. 

so all the good stuff you ask? well...

• every day i wake up smiling because i know i'm part of God blessing my IPs and i'm forever thankful that God chose me to do that. 
• i am thankful for the chance to be pregnant and not have to pay for the kiddos. don't judge me, you parents know it's hard out there for a momma. ;)
• i'm teaching my kids to love everyone. no matter what. and to do for others more than you do for yourself. and they do. and they are. 
• i love sharing my journey with you. and i welcome any questions you may have. 
• if you want to share my blog with someone who you think it could help/impact, please feel free to share. 
• i ask for prayers - for my health. for my IP's hearts and their families. for my girls and my family that they will be in peace thru this process and for all of our safety.
• I love cereal and reality TV (sad but true) 

so... do you want me to blog on a certain topic? please leave me a comment and i will work on it. this could be able any topic, but in the great words of Bonquiqui, don't get crazy....