Full Circle

So, since we had the twins, my personal life... it's been a whirlwind. Still. If you thought things would settle down after the twins were born, um... nope. LOL!!! While we were still pregnant, we started building a house. My amazing realtors and I looked for weeks for one that was built that was in our price range and such but everything we found, by the time I asked to look at it (a day or two on the market), there would be a contract on it. :( so... we elected to build. We were able to pick a lot, pick a plan, do a design build and modify to our specs for what we needed. I have to say, during this process, it's actually been pretty amazing. We were able to pick everything the way we wanted! brick, paint, granite, cabinets, floors, fixtures, etc... EVERYTHING. Boyfriend and his mom and dad were definitely included in part of this process too. The lot we picked were right by his parents and brother's houses so we wanted them to be around for the process as they would be over checking regularly making sure things were done the way we picked it to be. And the way it should be. 

Since I had to be out of my downtown house at the end of May, I had to decide what to do between Memorial day and July 17. I looked at getting an apartment at first which would be VERY expensive. However, as I mentioned before, there was NO WAY HUMANLY possible I could have made it thru this surrogacy process without boyfriend and his family. To add to the many MANY kind things they have done for me already, add to it letting the girls and I stay with them while we wait for the house to be ready. When the kids are with dad, I do get to stay with him, but their house is right by Mady's daycare and they have a neighbor with a pool, so the big girls got to enjoy swimming this summer. That neighbor also has a 4 yr old too that Mady loves to play with! So it has been quite fun for the kids. I have been very concerned about being an imposition and the impact we've had on them. Luckily it's not for very long and it seems to be OK so far. 

A couple weeks ago though, I awoke from a dead sleep to the realization that I'm closing on the house on July 17th. Last year on July 17th, IPs and I were in Dallas getting implanted with the twins! When I started this process, I was not hiding the fact that I did need the money to pay off massive amounts of debt I found myself in after my divorce. In that divorce, I sold my house and lots of possessions to get out of the marriage, which was the best thing for my family. But over the last 2 years, I was able to make great strides in restoration in all areas - emotionally, physically, financially, spiritually. I was very happy that in the last year specifically, with finding this date to be quite relevant and significant, it has now come full circle. That thru this beautiful and amazing process I had the privilege and blessing to be in, I am truly blessed to be able to restore for my family what was lost by what can only be deemed as some very poor decisions I made several years ago. 

So... a year ago... we were getting pregnant. and now... we're getting a brand new house! God indeed has truly blessed me. I heard someone say about St. Jude very recently if you have the ability to help you have the responsibility to help. I felt that way about my IPs. I have the ability to help them - why wouldn't I? I get asked this all the time... why did I chose this journey? how do I feel now about the babies? How do I feel about them? Would I do it again? Can I do it again? 

This process is going to be one of the single greatest things I will ever do in my life, aside from having my own children, mission trips, my job (I do love my job so very much and it is the best mission in the world). I will forever be so proud of the dads and the family we created. I will forever be grateful they trusted me with their babies and they chose me to walk this journey with them. Those babies are so blessed to have such great parents who love them and adore them and fought hard to get them. I'm so glad that I'll be able to watch them grow up loved and blessed.